A Dilemma
Right now, I'm really torn about something so I figured I would blog about it and get some opinions and advice. I have been taking a dance class at a local community college for the past two years now. This is my 5th semester taking there, and up until this semester, I have really enjoyed it. Most of the people that are in it are taking it as continuing education so they are my age or older even, and I am probably toward the upper half in terms of ability in the class which always helps.
It used to be something that I really looked forward to, something that I really enjoyed. But these days, I feel like I'm constantly having to force myself to go and even when I go, I don't have a good time. The people that I used to talk with and hang out with at class have all left, and the remaining people are nice but very cliquey and I'm not into that. We aren't doing any new dances this semester, she isn't letting us do student choreography like we did last spring, and overall it just sucks. I am already unhappy with my job situation, but force myself to do that every day - I just wonder if I am making a mistake forcing myself to do something I don't want to do in my private life too. I just don't know what to do.
I feel like a loser just quitting like this. But I also feel like I'm missing out on things by being locked into going twice a week to class when I don't really enjoy it that much. I don't have the time I would like to get things done around the house during the week so that I don't have a ton to do on the weekends. I don't have the time to read a good book or watch a movie I might want to see or even just spend time with my husband. I would love to be able to see my friends more often or do something random like head to Starbucks for a chat with some friends or go to the library and pick out some good books or just other things that I enjoy. Maybe I should just give it up until next fall when there is a more concrete schedule to things to get ready for the fall performances. Or maybe it's time to move on to something else.....maybe I could take classes at Powerhouse or one of those type of places just here and there as I want to and not feel like I HAVE to go every time. I just don't know what to do exactly.
So here I am opening it up to you all to see what you think. Please feel free to give any ideas, advice, thoughts, etc. about what you think. Maybe someone will volunteer to try out another class with me? Or something like Curves or something fun where I could see a friend and workout?! ;) I don't know, let me know what you think!
posted by Mel at 11:40 AM
7 Comments:
dude. if you're not enjoying it, or benefitting from it, and have to force yourself to go, something is definitely wrong.
i don't see the problem with quitting the class for a semester. and if you decide you really miss it, sign up for the Fall semester.
maybe you'd enjoy taking a class somewhere else, or with austin. i'd be up for a random class at powerhouse every once in a while - maybe it could be something we could do together!!
I would love that if we could take a class once a month or something together! :) Less intimidating that way and then I'd be guaranteed to see you more often! Thanks for your advice!
i'm so up for that! when we get together for lunch this week, let's look at a schedule and see what class we want to take!
so does this mean you are going to withdraw from the class? is it too late to get any $$ back?
Yes I will probably withdraw from the class. I think that is what my heart is telling me to do - just need some motivation to go through with it. I hate that! Unfortunately, I think it is too late to get any money back, but luckily it wasn't too expensive, and I paid it in December so I'll just pretend it was someone's Christmas present. :)
LOL. you're a nut. did you get my email?
i like your new doll!
Mel - I'm going through the same thing myself right now. Between work, my volunteer work, college, husband and kids, I'm absolutely miserable. The volunteer work involves a bunch of catty women and puts a shadow on everything. I'm tired of school and ready to quit. It's giving me a bad attitude at work and at home I don't want to do anything at all... maybe you just need a break. That's what people keep telling me! :)
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